It’s been a long time since I wrote, and I’ve spent a great deal of the time trying over and over how to figure out what to write. There are a million thoughts and experiences, and I have attempted multiple times to just start up the blog entries again as though I hadn’t been silent [...]
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Alright, I’ve been working on the whole-assed life thing, and it turns out it can be really challenging. I think part of my distaste for resolutions is how they come in moments of inspiration and gusto, but they require incredible amounts of work long after the rush of the goose-bump minute of setting the goal [...]
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There isn’t much profound to say, I suppose. From the time Heather and I were first together, our family cherished and adored Christmas the whole season through, and I have worked very very hard to make that a reality, still, for our children. Elle has had a rather difficult set of weeks, that have some [...]
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There’s always a challenge in front of me after not posting for a little while; the things I wanted to say, or that really felt important to express, grow to such a number that the task of writing them all becomes overwhelming. It’s a phenomena I think there needs to be a word for – [...]
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In the story of our family, the Wednesday before Heather died was full and significant. It was a day where the height of reality violently buzzed through every cell in my body. I simply couldn’t decide if I knew she was dying or if I was just allowing doubt to fill my being – doubt [...]
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Because my chilis have the week off from school, I didn’t have to be up as early to get ready to go to work myself. Consequently, I pushed my snooze button three times. And, not surprisingly, the kiddos – who had all asked to sleep in my bed last night – had already advanced downstairs [...]
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It’s just a day, right? Yesterday – it was just a day. That’s actually completely true. It was a Monday, so I did the regular routine. We get up at 7:30, the kids get dressed in the clothes I laid out, and Grandpa Scott helps them start breakfast by 8:00 so we can be on [...]
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I want to talk about the gone-ness of Heather for a minute. You know… again. My friend Erin was over visiting today, and I felt really acknowledged as we talked about the relationship I had with my girl, Heather. I have a hard time, quite often, explaining why a future relationship of any kind seems [...]
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Part 2 In considering the truths about loss that are permeating my self while populating my blog with the old CaringBridge journal entries, I was trying to stay in my moment and breathe – even though the moment felt sorrowful and difficult – and wanted to take note of one other thing that loss brings. [...]
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I just wanted to make a mention about grief. A few things tough about the truth of loss, I think. As I have prepared my website/blog, there has been a lot of rewarding and wonderful work that has gone into the process. Included in that, is the fact that I’ve tried to launch the blog [...]
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